Act One

 Along with watching and viewing porn, the next step in that exploration was to become a subscriber to Only Fans.  The Covid 19 pandemic changed everything in the world, including the world of porn.  One day I saw an add on Only Fans for a promotional sale for a porn star by the name of Simon Montana.  I liked what I saw and liked a few posts, this all happened on March 30.  By April 2^nd, we were on Whats App where he performed a private strip tease live on video call.  I paid of course as this was a business transaction for him and entertainment for me.  This was supposed to be a one-hour session.  It turned into two hours of stripping and talking to him.  By the end of the video call he was not just Simon Montana, the Only Fans creator, but Nahuel Pangamento, the real man behind Simon Montana.

After that first interaction with Nahuel, I became entranced by him.  He was cute, funny, intelligent, and overall, a wonderful human being.  We talked almost every day after that first meeting.  It also happened to be a big moment for him as well as he moved out and got his first apartment.  While all this sounds to good to be true, believe me it isn’t, there are still many challenges to this.

The first being what he does for work.  It is difficult to imagine the person you begin to fall in love with anyone who’s entire job is to have sex with others for pure entertainment for others.  Well, that’s what the man I love does and let me tell you, I am still not 100% sure about it.  I love him with all my heart, but I was still questioning every decision he made and became very insecure when I see other people liking his posts.  Somehow, he made sure to put my mind at ease every time I had doubts about it.  This is how important he is to me and I to him.  This was not the only obstacle though.

The second major issue we faced was our distance apart from each other.  I am an average 26-year-old man living in Massachusetts who has fallen for a 26-year-old porn star who lives and works in Buenos Aires, Argentina.  This is by far the most difficult thing the two of us face.  Every time we talk, we imagine what it will be like when we are together.  I know many people would say its easy to buy a ticket and come.  For me it would be, however I made plans to travel to Europe with my best friend and I will not break my promises to my friends.  For him the situation is entirely different.

From hyperinflation to corrupt government, Argentina’s economic situation is not good and not showing signs of improvement. On top of that, he needs to get a new passport as his expired during the pandemic and the process to get a new one is timely and costly.  As well as that, there is a language barrier that is improving with time.  I am not fluent in Spanish and neither is he in English.  We decided to make an arrangement where when we face time, we do so in English.  When we text, it is in Spanish. 

The third major issue is my own insecurities.  As anyone who has been in love can attest, there is always some lingering affects from a great relationship.  Usually when the relationship ends, the causes of the breakup can spill into the next great love.  For me it was all about communication.  When communication broke down the last time for me, it spelled the end for me and my partner at the time.  Every time Nahuel and I don’t talk for a long stretch of time, usually several hours, doubts about our new relationship enter my mind.  Thankfully he let’s me vent these concerns to him and he is very understanding about it all.

Will this relationship last, I do not know.  Do I want it to last, yes.  Does Nahuel, yes.  We cannot predict the future, but all I know is that I love him and he loves me.  Love transcends time and space.  We are both believers of fate and destiny and us meeting was no accident.  This is true; I believe this with all of my being.  So maybe, just maybe, we can overcome all these barriers and I can learn to be happy with the work my man does.  Afterall, this was the reason I was attracted to him in the first place.